Hi, I think I'm going crazy, I waiting on surgery, neuro dr. told me and my family that I shouldn't driving, so my independence gone, on top off that my symtem got worst, I feel so violent, I couldn't stand the noise of my kids playing, I get mad on very little thing and I throwing thing around when I get angry, my husband is very sweet try to take good care of me and I get angry with him anyway with no reason, I'm affraif that I'm psycho, my memory, my attention, is worst. Is anyone have the same problem? :'( >:(
Kieu

well i'd like to say i'm sure you're not crazy but i guess i can't make that call from far away....
as for your "symptoms".. well they sound pretty common to me!
not being able to drive - damn sucks a whole lot... emma (posts on here) couldn't drive for 3 months, was allowed for a week and then went another 6 months... try that... it does suck but it's also reasonable... before my first operation i was the first person to say "hold on, I can't drive.." especially if you're feeling worse in general... there is a lot of things to think about.focus on with driving... not to mention the physical aspect (yeah ok a kombi has no power steering and a damn massive steering wheel...)....
noise - far out yeah... a lot of us experience that - try going through old posts a bit sometimes maybe... people have called it a sensory overload - lights, noise.. etc.... mine went with my operation so hopefully yours will...
waiting for surgery - story of my life.. i get 2 weeks notice for an op... it could be any time in the next 2-3 months.... yay
memory - well this may feel like the worst... hell i'm an engineer and i still don't know my times-tables anymore.. but i mean how important is that really.. i guess it depends on what you're forgetting, but if it's numbers, words, small tasks.... don't get frustrated... they're not that significant in the big picture and stress is just going to increase your risk of experiencing MM symptoms
anger/madness - well i dunno about this one.. i didn't experience it but i guess that just develops from your whole attidude about the disease... i can definitely say from past experience that you'll do a hell of a lot better coping with and recovering from your surgery if you don't focus on the negatives about the disease. sure it might be hard to find positives, but go for neutral rather than sad/bad.
sounds like basically you just need to work on patience (oh and i don't want to sound like i'm lecturing here, just what i've learnt) - and it's not always easy to deal with but you've just got to accept that this is what you've got to do.
sounds like your husband is being very understanding and that's got to be an amazing thing for you.

anyway... dunno if that will help but basically to answer your question, yep.. i think heaps of us have had the same problem.
it might be reassuring for you to sometimes do a search of the forum and read up on old topics and see the issues other MM survivors have discussed, That sure helped me when I was first diagnosed.

Kieu,

I was going through some rough times myself.  I didn't realize I was actually going through a bout of depression.  I was lucky that a relative of mine noticed that I was acting rather strangely.  She told me she could see me putting on my "happy" face when everyone was around and I would just leave so I could be by myself most of the time.  I still don't like loud noises and crowds but, since I've been on some medication to help with my depression, things have gotten a lot better.  Just so you know, you are not alone and going crazy  [smiley=gocrazy.gif].    I know what you are going through (been there, done that).  I also thought I lost my independence for a while.   I finally realized that I actually liked it that I didn't have to drive.  I liked having someone else do everything for you.  I'm usually the caregiver.  It was nice having people taking care of me instead!!  You may want to check with your neurologist or your PCP regarding this.  I know it's really helped for me.

Aloha,
Jan

Kieu,
 My daughter Jeanette is going through the same thing.
Being stuck in the house all the time and alone most of the day, it's very hard to think positive. There are six children and four of them are teenagers, she also has a short temper. She has no computer to beable to contact this web site. So she can talk to others like herself, this I feel is very important. [ your not alone keep in touch with everyone here]. Talk to them let everything out. They will listen and understand. Always remember your not alone.        Shirley

Hi Kieu

I think most of us can identify with you to some degree - my 12 yo son will tell you that before my surgeries, he was living with Jekyll and Hyde - a madwoman !

It DOES get better ! Since surgery, due to small focal fits/dizzy spells, I am banned from driving.
I actually now enjoy this - life runs at a far less hectic pace (and I spend less money on retail therapy !).

We have all been blessed with a second chance - I now know that NOTHING is more important that my health and my relationship with my son.

Hang in there !

Helene

Thank you all for your support, I'm a caregiver myself too, I hate to ask for someone to do anything for me that why now get me upset, but you all right, I need to be better so I can take care of everybody else.  I think my family can use some smile around the house :D
I glad that I'm not alone.
Thank you

I feel that way alot of times I've noticed even before my surgery(when I was first diagnosed back in July)and after my surgery that I have no patience for stupid,idiotic,selfcentered people ,people that take life for granted and the ones who think that they know everything and they don't. Since my surgery in Jan. I've become worse..I feel angry alot and just want too give up. I've got a short temper, even more so now. I was wondering, does anyone feel closed in when they are around alot of people either at home or if they go shopping? I do alot. thats why chad does the shopping cause i can't stand too be around people. Makes me feel too nervous and if there is alot of people at the house i feel like hiding and pulling into a shell and stay there. Thats why most of the time when I feel nervous i hide in my room until they leave.  But has too feeling violent i do. Cause i can snap and  explode and yell.

Last 3 days I end up in hospital because my symtom got worst and my doctor told me to go to ER, but anyway, he told me to take effexor for my mood, I will try and see if it help.
Me too, I don't like crowd, I get sick when I go to store and I couldn't focus on anything if there was a crowd around, talk to your doctor see if he can help.  Good luck [smiley=hug.gif]

I FEEL SO LUCKY TO COME OUT OF MY FIRST SURGURY WITJ HARDLY NOTHING WRONG THAT I FEEL SO BADLY TO COMPLAIN TO MY DR. SO IDONT BUT THE TRUETH IS IAM HGAPPY ONE MINUTEE AND EVERYTHING BOTHERS ME THE NEXT MINUTE I HATE FEELING MAD AND ANGRY ALL THE TIME AND WOULD LOVE TO JUST LAUGH. FOR SOME REASON I CANT AND CANT SHUT DOWN MY BRIAN IT IS CONSTANTLY GOING SENSE MY SURGURY 5 MOUTHS AGO DOES ANY ONE EVER HAVE REALLY BAD EYE PAIN ON THE SIDE OF YOUR SURGURY!I WENT TO THE EYE DR AND MY SIGHT IS FINE. PLEASE EMAIL ME ARE ANSWER BACK CESGonza2@alo.com :-[ :-[