Het everyone. For those of you that don't know or remember me I am Nikki and my mom Rhonda has moyamoya. Anyway, sorry I have been gone so long. Alot has happened in the past year. The main thing is I lost my husband Chris in a car wreck 1 year ago today [smiley=bigcry.gif] [smiley=bigcry.gif]. My life has been a blurr every since. My mom is doing good though. It's kinda hard to see the good anymore though ya know. I look forward to talking with everyone agian and getting to know those I don't know :)

I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS  :( MY HUSBAND (of 36 years) WAS KILLED 3 YEARS AGO WHEN HE FLIPED ON A 4-WHEELER..... :( SO I KNOW HOW HARD THIS HAS BEEN FOR YOU,,,,,,

TAKE-CARE YOU ARE IN MYPRAYERS

Elaine Calvert

Hello Nikki

The Holidays can be especially hard.....but please use this as a time to reflect on all the happy memories and to gain strength and love from all around you. We never actually get over the loss of someone dear to us.....we just learn how to cope and become a better person from having had them in our lives. Hope to see more of you here. : )

Warm wishes....Diane

Hi Nikki,

It's great to see you back!  I'm very sorry about the loss of your husband . . . can't even imagine how difficult that must have been (and probably still is).  As Diane said, continue surrounding yourself with those you love and gain strength from them.  Chris, of course, will be in your heart forever.

I'm happy to hear your mom is doing well.  Please give my best to both your mom and dad, and I hope you all have a nice Christmas.

[smiley=hug.gif] Jill

Thank yall for your sympothies. It's been a long road. I was following behind him when it happened so I basically watched him die. I don't think I will ever get those memories out of my head. I try to remember the good times and not that night. God knows we had plenty of good times together, he was my soulmate, but seeing him in that car never goes away. I am not looking forward to Christmas at all. I just hurts that much more. I had a drinking problem over the past year but I have a handle on that now. I only drank sat. night which was the anniversary of his death and I remembered real quick the next day why I quit lol. His birthday is the27th so that will be a hard day as well. It's not a good month :(

AGAIN I AM SOOOO SORRY ABOUT YOUR LOSS,  WHEN MY HUSBAND FLIPED ON HIS 4-WHEELER I SAW HIM TOO AND YOU ARE RIGHT YOU DON'T FORGET THE SIGHT..  MY HUSBAND WAS PURPLE AND GASPING FOR AIR------HE NEVER REGAINED CONCIOUSNESS AND WASTAKEN OFF LIFE SUPORT THE NEXT DAY AFTER MY KIDS FLEW IN FROM FLORIDA.....THE WORST THING WAS MY 2 GRANDAUGHTERS RODE THERE BIKES DOWN TO SEE HIM AND THE OLDEST ONE HAD TO BE HOSPITALIZED OVER IT ( HER FATHER HAD COMMITED SUCIDED WHEN SHE WAS 2 AND MY HUSBAND WAS THE ONLY FATHER FIGURE SHE HAD----THEY WERE VERY CLOSE ) SHE WAS DXed WITH POST TRUMATIC STRESS SYSTEM, AND AFTER 3 YEARS STILL STRUGGLES WITH HIS LOSS----SHE WILL BE 16 IN MAY......
I GUESS ALL YOU CAN DO IS TRUST IN THE LORD AND TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME-----THAT'S WHAT I DO.....

TAKE CARE ALL OF "US"ARE HERE FOR YOU :)
ELAINE CALVERT

Thank you Elaine. It feels better that I am not alone. My husband drove through a picket fence and one of the posts went in his head. When I got to the car the post had moved(thank God) but I saw the hole in his head and heard the way he was trying to breath. Sorta chi
okin on his own blood. The someone carried me to a police car. He officially died on the way to the hospital. I am so sorry you had to make the decision to turn of the respirator. That must have been so hard. I just hope I can make it through the hilidays without having a nervous break down agian :-/ Thank you so much for being here, and I hope I can vent to you agian.