NIKKI I have been able to find comfort in the fact that I was able to donate my husbands organs and 7 children Now have 2 fathers and a Mother and one person has eyesight......My husbands brain had shifted to the side and his brain stem was severed and he would have been a vegtable IF he survived....And when I was in a coma for a couple weeks after My 1st surgery I can remember hearing people and feeling them touching me AND NOT being able to Open my eyes or move anything AND BELIEVE ME I felt SO Panickiee like I could not breath andit was the MOST HORRIBLE FEELING EVER so taking my husband off the resparator was not as hard for me ( I TOLD MY WHOLE FAMILY IF I EVER HAD A STROKE AND WAS IN A VEGATATED STATE-----PULL MY PLUG) I had already told my kids how the coma was for ME so they were OK with me letting him go,,,,,,I just had to wait for them to get to Ohio to at least say Good-Bye....Also I met the recieptant of his pancreas and one kidney (Had such a good conection with Him that I felt my husband in knowing him-----We meet every time I go back to Ohio (I moved back to Florida after he died to be near my kids and grandkids) 8) As Much as I still feel lost without Russell and You Are Right the Holidays Are Extremely Hard I feel thankful to be aliveand just have to trust that I am still here for a reason.....I HAVE CHEATED DEATH SOooooo MANY TIMES NOW I KNOW I AM STILL HERE FOR SOME REASON----JUST DON'T KNOW YET WHAT IT IS--------I fell and was embeded on a steel rod going thru my neck and coming out under my tounge and being on comadine was lucky when my son pulled me off I didn't bleed to death and spent 5 days in the hospital......Fell backwards off the 3rd step and landed on the back of my head on a concreat garage floor and had 10 staples......My husband bout had a heart attack that day, had 10 staples and a concussion,,,,And that is only a couple things that has happened to me,,,,,,broke my foot 3 times a rib just 4 months ago.........

I'm a walking accident waiting to happen

Just hang in there I guess everything happens for a reason------take-care andknow YOU will be in my thoughts and prayers,,,,,,Elaine Calvert