thank you all very much, you will never know how much this means to me, i just dont know how to say in words how i feel you know if savannah was my only child with mm , this might not be so hard but i keep thinking about the other two and asking myself what did i do so wrong in my life to deserve this i just really felt like there is not anything to do for her except let her be happy while she can,again thank you DJ for this web site i can come here and know that people know how i feel, but you guy should know i am getting very tired and sometimes i feel like i cant go on anymore i dont know why all of my children had to have mm i wished i knew, wel i dont want to take up space, i just needed to post thanks for the prayers and support.

               Sandy,
                     Savannah,Jake, Angelica,'lil' Sandy