Aloha Lara,
Don't worry, you're not alone...being scared is human nature and a normal reaction... As for how to "take this news"...I agree with Lore that once you're able to ask your medical team more in-depth questions regarding this "variant" of MM, then maybe you'll have a better understanding of what you're facing. The one thing that came to my mind after reading your posting was the same thing Lore suggested asking your physician...
Quote:"It concerns me that you have paralysis. Have you always had paralysis or is it something new? Does it come and go? What has your doctor said about the paralysis?"
and..are your symptoms on both sides?

I do know of another previously diagnosed MM patient that had 3 surgeries, and now her medical team has advised her that she may not have MM after all...so you are the second person that I've heard something of this nature. Hmmm....

Nonetheless, I cannot express enough how obtaining additional medical opinions literally saved my life.

Again, all you pay for is the postage (or imaging fees if your hospital charges you). You can send your films (CT, MRI/MRA, Angiogram, etc) to other MM experts to merely obtain their opinions and go from there... It can only provide you more information from their professional perspective. ;

I hope you're able to find comfort in our replies to your posting~and more importantly, find out more information regarding your specific circumstance by speaking with your medical team that's providing your care.
Take care,
Shan