Dear Christine,
I agree with Nancy. You can't give up. I am 30 years old, diagnosed with MM at 29. When I was hospitalized, my initial thought was "why me?" Life isn't fair. Well, I quickly got over that. Maybe it's my personality.
But after a year of rehabbing, I still need a wheelchair and walker. I returned to work 2-4 days a week depending on how I'm feeling last Sept., one year after my stroke. I work on the 2nd floor and there is no elevator. So every morning I have to climb up and down the stairs.
I have had seizures since my surgeries and other asssorted problems. But I just think that it could be a lot worse. I motivate myself by thinking to give up because of MM is allowing the disease to defeat me. Of course, I had to make some adjustments and life altering changes to accomodate my new "friend".
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I don't pretend to understand. Because for the thought to give up to even cross your mind, you must have it much harder.
We all have reasons to live for. Just remind yourself of what your's is. I am grateful for my parents, my fiance, her family, my friends and co-workers. Maybe this disease will get me in the end but I'm not going down without a fight. We have one life to live, might as well live it! Afterall, you have all of eternity to rest.
Just a thought.
Doug